A big yellow monster bit me!

These are the words I heard through tears at 3:30am this morning. Man do I wish I could kick some Monster @$$! After I calmed Gage down last night and came back to bed I was just dozing off when we received a visitor. It must have been a doozy cause he was still shook up. He snuggled in with Brian as Reece started to cry. Once again down the stairs mommy went. I had another snuggler that did NOT want to be let go. Every time I attempted to lay her back in her bed the SCREEMING began. We slept a bit on the couch until I thought it was safe to lay her down in her own bed...I was WRONG. Since Gage was upstairs in my bed I figured I would use his, so we slept the rest of the wee hours of the morn in big brothers room. As I was frustrated/grumpy/pissy/you name it...about what little sleep I got and how a break from beeing mommy would be nice...I read my sister-in-laws blog and about cried. How much we take for granted the hard times when the good times far out number them. As I reflect on her anguish my heart breaks 'cause I know just a brief glimmer of her feelings. I wish all the late night feedings, middle of the night nightmares, fits, fights and minor injuries on her & my brother because all that comes with that is bliss! In my heart I know it will happen (I know!).

Well the wind has calmed a bit to a constant breeze. It doesn't feel as cold in the house as I expected with arctic temperatures. Gage made it off to school today with Daddy and Reece and I had fun playing this morning. As she grabbed her "detto" (pacifier) and her blanket she was about asleep on the living room floor. We snuggled & sang and now she is talking/whining in her bed. Strong wills run in our family. I have a bit of work left to do...but not much. So I guess it is time for a drop off/pick up of more work today. It has been fantastic to be able to do work from home during nap times and in the evenings. I am able to get in 10 hours a week without a struggle but I have to stay dilligent to attempt more. I knew being a mommy was fulltime but sheesh :)

As we come closer the new year Brian is anxious about getting lasik surgery on his eyes (& so am I). It will be so nice for him not to have to wear glasses (especially when it is wrestle-mania in the living room). I will be setting up my vein closure "procedure" ASAP as well. As it turns out I have something called superficial venuos reflux disease that causes pain & fatigue. I thought it was just in my head that my legs felt like boat anchors and hurt all the time...but it's not. Thankfully to my good friend & neighbor Susan Panjabi (who had the procedure in one leg after the birth of her second child) I found out some more information. Check out the link www.vnus.com This is the procedure I had heard tid-bits about years ago. I did NOT want to have my vericose veins stripped nor did I want saline injections. It appears this is "mostly" covered by insurance and since we have flexible spending money this year we are both able to get "fixed up". If there is any money left over I will be looking into another "procedure". For those of you who know what the women in my family are cursed with you will know exactly what procedure :) ha ha ha.

Well Reece doesn't seem to be giving up the fight no matter how exhausted she is but I stand firm...she will stay in there until she passes out from fatigue. Good day to all, take a deep breath and enjoy the moment.